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5月8日 Summer school is only two weeks away! I know .. I have enough going on and stuff, right? C'mon, friends! You know me! And to be totally fair, I did think about this, that maybe I should sacrifice and "watch my mom" and cultivate my stress to a new level. Jill, one of my coworkers, simply assured me "You need to do this". And she's right. There's a sense of normalcy in returning to academia, to the harried, exiliarating chaos of it all. Reguardless on what is happening to my mom, time is still going on and I have to take care of myself. What I had to work out emotion-wise is I am not abandoning her by "living". She is right in the front of my thoughts. And Lord! Be with those who don't take care of her right .. we will be there every day! Update: She is leveling off a little. She now has a feeding tube and we may get to move her to a skilled nursing facility (Fancy term for "nursing home") later this week.
I love to write. My favorite classes are the writing classes. My last post was a short story I did for my Creative Writing classes a few semesters ago. I recalled a movie that starred Peter Strauss and Judith Light as a couple where "she" was the one abusing her spouse. It was wild to see that, since Americans have been conditioned that women were always the victims of such violence. I wrote that piece, mainly to be a smartass, but the more I wrote, the more I wanted to. It took on a dance of its own. Since fiction is fact somewhere, it does make you wonder how often this twist happens?! Since I've been living quite a bit at the hospital my Mom is is, I have seen a lot of coupes similar to the one I wrote about. And I wonder ...
The nuances of the comments are wonderful, but let me assure you .. I am not a victim! I did see a few years ago, that the possibilities exist between many couples. But, as I told Ma, Cee will not go down without a fight. Do not worry. I am fine!
I do want to warn you, I will write deeper subjects along the way ... I am a poet at heart, but I want to challenge myself. I want to get my imaginations on paper.
The clip of my eyes .. taken from a recent pic I used as my profile .. reflect my inner surface. They are truly the windows of my soul, my imaginings, my thoughts. I usually have them hidden first thing in the morning behind my thick glasses .. soon to be hidden behind bifocles. When I have contacts on, I eyeliner, shadow, and black kohl-them-up, making my brown eyes clearer, more penetrating. I once could not look at anyone deep in the eyes .. too shy, too evasive, too knowing. Now, after so many business classes and public speaking seminars, I can do this. I want to let the other person know he or she has my rapt attention. Therefore, make my eyes more attractive, more fathomless, drawing you in, and keeping you captive! Sexy!? Yeah, that too! (grin) I won't lie to you 'bout that! I'm old enough now!
Do have a great week!
Creative writing, anyone?
12月4日 Good Morning!
Hi, gang! Talk about a busy weekend! And, unfortunately, not one bit went to studying like I planned. The next few weeks will be a mess! This is the exam time, and I'm getting in gear for it. I'm going to visit everyone during the week. I got to catch up and make sure all is well! I really want to visit some new friends! I got to peek, but couldn't do some places justice! While my car is warming up, I have to suggest a holiday movie. If you haven't seen "It's a Wonderful Life", now is a good time! It's about three hours long. If time is an issue, just look at the last hour! When I first saw it, I cried. The second time, I cried. Last night, I cried. (Well, what can I say??) The premise very simple. A person is richest is he/she has a friend. I am very rich, indeed. I have been granted the gift of friendship since I've been in BlogLand. Blessings to everyone today. Have a great day and I'll see you later! * * * * * * Fun post on the Laird's site: What kind of person is he by what coffee he gets? 11月5日 Early registration It's coming. Early registration starts tomorrow. I have a choice in what I want to take.
Perfection is not an option. I will give it a shot and let it roll off my back. Gads, I'm a sophomore. A college sophomre. I can do this, and I don't have to be perfect! I really, really don't! Isn't that great?
'Course I'm still very idealistic, but I have become reasonable. I'm not going to take up Japanese because I was a martial artist. I will take things that really mean a lot to me or I am totally interested in. I can have fun in school
And, maybe .. just maybe, I may take an online class ... and do it on campus. How much can I do at home? Ha! Nothing!
What am I thinking of? What am I taking? HeeHee! Not algebra! No math, whatsoever!
I want to take Photo Journalism, and Elementary Spanish II. I want the Radio Production and the Afro-American History, and the Philisophy or World Religion.
I'm gong to feed my spirit and my heart, not the pocket book.
Growing up is so much easier than I thought!  9月29日 Happy Birthday to me!
I've made it to Friday! It's been a hectic week, not just with school and homework, but with overtime on top of a forty hour work week. This morning, I hit my alarm for that extra sleep. I have an eight o'clock class. Next I saw the time, it was 11:45. Ha! Guess I needed the sleep! Kovu was at the foot of the bed keeping my feet warm.
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 Well, what else could I do? She wouldn't move. All I could do was keep her warm!) My birthday is Monday, October 2nd. I'll be 45 years old. It's a cool time for me. I've got to do things I never thought I could do. I' going to do more, too .. I just don't know what yet. The world is my discovery zone! This is a holiday weekend at K & C's. The earth mama's gonna party! I'm giving a shout out to Blogland that Cee's National Holiday weekend's under way. Toast me with your favorite beverage .. whatever that is.
Where is the Earl? He's my all night dance partner. Right now, he's talking with Kate. Where's Dennis? I can talk to EZ and Marilyn all night. But do me a favor, gang .. hold my Long Island Iced tea, the one with the Mariscino cherries in it. Fay and Tysley's got a group on the floor dancing. I'll be right back. C'mon, Tom (Malathion Man) ! Let's shake it!
Whatever you do this weekend, do it right and please be safe!
 Smooches!
Cee 9月17日 Disturbing Wifey during study time isn't a good idea. It was my intention to study very hard this weekend. If you're an older student with a (still) growing family, this isn't easy. In fact, it's quite difficult. The most obvious solution to this would to have not gone at all, but taking the easy route was something I could never do. Now the dog isn't the problem! Why don't you take a multiple choice test between the three problems and circle the right answer:
A. Friday: I'm doing fairly well on the three classes I take M-W-F. I hadn't made my two online classes go that well. In fact, I've already missed my first exam in Psychology. I got out of class at 11:00 a.m. Since the Husband was working, I had to do the bill paying thing. I really thought I could squeeze it in before I left for work. Not! I cooked dinner and ran out of time. (sigh) In my Criminal Justice class, I need a key to get into my online homework. So, I will have to contact my teacher to get that. Ack! Talk about feeling like a goof! It's all about scheduling and sticking with a time every few days, plus teaching myself to focus. (meaning, Cee! Don't go to spaces until you do your homework!) I haven't got used to my laptop being my seat in the online classroom.
B. Saturday: The Husband works Friday-Saturday-Sunday from 6 a.m.-6 p.m. Usually, this is perfect! I don't have an extra body around to cater to. However, it wasn't to be like that. Friday night, Nick discovered a puddle of ants under my canisters. (This happpened before I came home from work.) When I got home, the Husband was in his fussing glory, tearing everything out of the cabinets. The whole family, he declared loudly, would get to the route of the ant problem when he came home from work Saturday evening. Well, he came home unexpectedly early, (by then I've been to WalMart and went to my sister's house to see a visiting cousin), so we attacked the kitchen. While we were at it, we cleaned the whole house. We didn't finish until 10:30 that night. Another night was shot. I started to hunt for junk food.
C. Sunday: I woke up with a stuffy nose. Grrr! I started my homework in my office (the kitchen table) when my phone rang at 10 a. m. It was the Husband. He's off early -- again. Fine, but I need to do my homework. He got home a while later. I used the Sinex and mindlessly scarfed both servings of the plain M&Ms he brought home. What are we having for lunch? Depression, not to mention annoyance, was settling into my gut. Did I take my Effexor? I cooked fried stuff for the crew, and retreated to the bedroom. Later, I had to use the family computer to run off a report. Now, the husband's been quiet a while, but he was chanting some words over and over again, like a litany ..
I want some booty...I want some booty! Oh, for corn sakes!!!
Nick asked what was wrong with me. As I walked passed, I calmly told him "Daddy wants to get busy".
Later, I let him have it. How can I finish with grown a-- people acting like they need constant attention! I have five classes! I need to study and do my work!
I didn't know you had five classes.
Yes you did. Remember it was the provision of being reinstated this semester!
Well, (pouting) you should've told me!
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
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Well, I have to get up and throw together some form of a rough draft for my writing class. I have three tests this week, plus the final draft of my paper. I'm eating Kashi Good Friends now. My destructive eating is under control. I'm going to drug myself with Sudafed and go to bed.
(... and I know what you're going to say. And you're right. I'm heading to the library!!!!!!!!!)
9月7日 Aggie Pride!
I work full time on second shift, so my class schedule had to be perfect, allowing me time to rest and get some excercise. It is. I go to the North Carolina A&T State University campus three times a week, and take my other classes online. Did I mention my books are very heavy? My backpack weights in about ten pounds! Thank goodness, I don't have to lug the Psych and Criminal Justice ones with me! Before school began, I was apprehensive and concerned. I was returning not just as a sophomore, but as a recovering burn patient. I was ready for the inevitable questions, but to my surprise, onoe came. Only a few corer classmates who knew what happened got more details. Being a non-traditional student is great. Some subjects are a breeze, and truly fascinating. Others put me to sleep. Sometimes a teacher will seek rapport with me an adult can give. It's not a bad thing. I'm at the age of appreciation, and I know I'm paying for quality. I don't have time to waste. In fact, I'm more confident, and I say what I mean. If I don't get it, I'll just say so. After the first few days, I didn't worry about appearing clueless, dumb, or dumbfounded. School, no matter what age, is about learning. As long as I'm on the planet, it will be so. TJ and I won't get to see each other on campus. He has his schedule and I have mine. When I started over there, I wanted to see him all the time. Then, I remembered: I have my own education to get. I love him, but I wasn't going to school for him. I have to work for me. There's a growing movemet for adult students. It's not taboo as it once was. I guess we all have the same indecision starting. All these young'uns traisping around, being older -- and looking it! -- and other melodramas that plays out in our fearful minds. Now that it's calmed down, it's full speed ahead .. untill the next semester, and getting so excited, I get a migraine!
8月13日 The Return of the Adult StudentPersist: To refuse to give up especially when faced with opposition; to endure, remain
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Fall semester starts next Monday and I'm ready to go. I did fairly well this time last year, but I wasn't too thrilled with the spring. I was in a choppy state and I knew it. I felt the familiar boredom, the numbing lethargy, the deadening brain matter similar to my latter high school years. I was burned out by my numerous activities. I was planning a sabbatical by decreasing my academic load. But, life simply has a way of making one slow her roll!
I'd preretistered in March; I kept the same schedule (not tampered with -- and I know most of you don't believe that!) but, to satisfy the requirements of my reinstatement, I have to take an additional three hours. (I received incompletes for the Spring semester.) I'm a full time student, full time working woman. Hey! Someone find me a super hero costume! Superwoman has returned!
I'm going to A&T State University. T is a rising junior there. I wanted to go to the same college on a lark. ( I see him once or twice around campus.) The Husband declared I had the "Empty Nest Syndrome". Possibly. Could be. Most likely. However, I need back up for my current job -- just in case. I worked in the cigarette industry for sixteen years, and I'm still idealistic about doing something more suitable. Not to mention, it can be challenging and fun.
I've got three more books to purchase. I'm taking classes in subjects I know, instead of those that give me a headache! (That's for grown folks!) Unfortunately, I can't say that about Algebra/Trig II. It's a core class, and I have no choice in the matter. In fact, that's why I took out my braided extentions so I don't completely pull out my hair! Hmph! I'm going to embrace Algebra (or I keep telling myself that!)
 Chow!
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School's in full swing, and so am I! The first few weeks, complete with getting books, a parking decal, and additional costs I didn't count on, were hectic. I was so hyped up and nervous, I got a blazing migraine that hovered over my left eye. Giving in to my form of the "vapors", I took the night off from my job and stayed at home, downing my heavy duty meds.
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